To the ends of the earth would you follow Me?


The road to sanctification is tough. It isn’t a flat road with wild flowers on each side, but rather a rough and rocky path. Although this path may be tough, where it leads is what matters.

Saint Maria Faustina had a vision of two paths….

“…I saw two roads. One was broad, covered with sand and flowers, full of joy, music and all sorts of pleasures. People walked along it, dancing and enjoying themselves. They reached the end without realizing it. And at the end of the road there was a horrible precipice; that is, the abyss of hell. The souls fell blindly into it; as they walked, so they fell. And their number was so great that it was impossible to count them. And I saw the other road, or rather, a path, for it was narrow and strewn with thorns and rocks; and the people who walked along it had tears in their eyes, and all kinds of suffering befell them. Some fell down upon the rocks, but stood up immediately and went on. At the end of the road there was a magnificent garden filled with all sorts of happiness and all these souls entered there. At the very first instant they forgot all their sufferings” (Diary 153).

I learned a lot about these two paths while hiking two of Colorado’s beautiful peaks. Although I didn’t cry, doesn’t mean I didn’t want to at some points.

I know. This sounds pathetic.

While we were hiking up the steepest part of the mountain, every muscle in my legs were aching and tired. Then to my left I look over to see my boyfriend who was taking it all like a champ! Smiling, laughing, and even joking as we are working our way through the rocks! Each time we stopped because of my tired legs I would immediately look over to him and say “Sorry. I’m just such a wimp.” To this he would look at me with the same sweet grin and say, “It’s not meant to be easy”.

We made it through the rocky and narrow part to reach the summit, and how sweet it was! There’s something beautiful about being above the clouds. It felt almost as if Heaven was within reach. Through the celebration and the peace felt on top of that mountain, I found some clarity about the road to Sainthood.

Tim was right. “It’s not meant to be easy”.

In the spiritual life, we as a people avoid pain because it hurts and at times leaves us feeling a sense of brokenness. We wish pain away but cease to recognize what pain does to us. It prepares us for the goodness that we taste in happiness and joy. Anyone who has run long distance will tell you that the pain they felt during the run was worth the exhilaration they felt afterwards. We feel a sense of joy and satisfaction when we reach that summit, especially knowing the hard task that it took for us to get to that point!

The question remains, why is it that we feel the full extent of pain and it seems never ending, yet happiness and joy seem to pass quickly? I experienced this. The joy of being above the clouds lasted a good while but then there was the realization that we still had yet another peak to climb, and a long road down the mountain, away from the breath taking view, and beneath the clouds that would be waiting for us. Venerable Fulton Sheen explains that this lasting pain and fleeting happiness occurs because, “pain was meant to be exhausted in this life. Joys are not, because they belong to another existence”.

Joy and happiness will be fulfilled where pain ceases to exist… Heaven.

The suffering that we feel here on earth has no place in Heaven! Isn’t that wonderful? We suffer because we are allowed to suffer here and must do so for Christ and with Christ. Our spiritual life will make us feel pain at times, so how do we make that pain bearable?

We love.

Tim demonstrated this perfectly on our hike. Without annoyance or comparison he lifted my spirits when I was down. He showed me that even though we feel pain we can still smile, laugh, and joke. We learn to love more thoroughly and completely when we love during the most painful times of our lives. Seriously… If this isn’t some amazing marriage prep, I don’t know what is.

The road to Sainthood is a road to Calvary. Whatever your cross may be; chastity, sobriety, modesty, faith, or so on. Realize that the summit is there! You are making your way when you choose the rough path to rid yourself of temptation and sin! Don’t let the devil tell you that you’re so far away it would be better to turn around, because if you turn around now you will miss out on the beauty that awaits.

If Heaven is to be far greater than being high above the clouds in beautiful Colorado, I can only imagine how beautiful it will be! Now’s your chance to decide…

Which path will you take? 

  10565231_10203122967368231_411435179958551441_n 10013927_10203122905726690_8099669625005100780_n



365 Days of Love Notes | Take 4

If you don’t know about this link up series I’m participating in check out !

July 14th through July 19th


-On Monday my day began with watching my little nephew Miles. Because my grandma from Texas was in I was able to watch the little man! Playing hide and seek with him literally brings out the child in me. He shows me the love of a child so transparently and taught me the love that Our Lord must have for His children.


-On Tuesday I grabbed a cup of coffee with a friend of mine! Our Lord was showing me the fruits of continuing to work in His vineyard.


-On Wednesday I enjoyed a day with my baby niece and nephews!!


-On Thursday I had some much needed an exciting news for my new modesty project 30 days modesty challenge! Keep a lookout for the details 🙂 Check out my blog “30 Day Modesty Challenge” for more info and consider joining me in this challenge!


-On Friday I had a date night with my boy! It included a nice gluten free dinner (still getting used to him being gluten free), a walk, some live music, and an awesome fireside chat with my sister and her boyfriend.


– On Saturday it was eventful! I went on a beautiful (but tiring) hike with my boy! Which included an embarrassing bloody nose moment where I learned how modest TRULY is hottest. My bloody nose got my t-shirt all bloody and the only other shirt I had with me was a waterproof jacket. I had to wear that in 90 degree weather…. One word… HOT. But Gods beauty and the conversation I was able to have with my handsome guy made that day pretty awesome! Along with a pretty wonderful gender reveal party for my older sister! Guess what? I’m going to have another baby NEPHEW! Fun fun stuff!


– Sunday. Beautiful relaxing day where I got to worship The Lord I love and hang out with my family! Also, I watched the movie “Gimme Shelter”. If you haven’t seen it…. Do it. Seriously. I’ll be writing a blog review on it! Keep on the lookout!

365 Days of Love Notes | Take 3 (catch up)

I know I have been so terrible at updating my love notes! So sorry! The busy days got the best of me. Here is just some updates for my readers on things I have been very thankful for and what I have been up to! I’ll narrow it down to 7 things…

1. I am so blessed and thankful to have gotten through summer school with a passing grade AND pass my PRAXIS II Test that continues my journey towards becoming a teacher! If you want to read up on why I want to become a teacher you can read it on my teacher blog here.

2. After the craziness of summer school and test taking I ventured off to southern Colorado with the Medearis Family to go to the Sand Dune National Park. This place literally looked like it was right out of Aladdin or something. It was a blast to be with my boyfriends family and go on an adventure.

3. After the Sand Dunes I got in the car with my family and headed to Joplin, Missouri to see my Dad’s family there. Joplin has always been a place that I love and I have had such fond memories there. Despite all the damage from the tornado that passed through there and unfortunately took many lives and homes, there’s still such a hopeful spirit in Joplin. Thankfully my Aunt and Uncle are quite settled into their new home (with a new tornado shelter) with my Grandma living close by in a nursing home. Please pray for those who work with the elderly! The work they do is so important and shouldn’t go unnoticed!

4. Almost immediately after my trip to Missouri the family all headed to El Paso, Texas to visit my Mom’s side of the family! Included on this trip; were both of my older and married sisters with their families, Jenna and her boyfriend, and my boyfriend. We had a couple of packed cars. We got to go to the Minor League Chihuahua baseball game, spend fourth of July in the Texas sun, and finish the trip off with a family reunion. Let me tell ya.. it was a lot to pack in just a few days. The best part was being able to do such fun things in a place where such immense tragedy had happened to my family…. it is as if we were making steps on moving forward in our lives but never forgetting the people that we are missing.

5. Finally getting to get back to my house and returning to my much needed reading is a highlight. My boyfriend and I are doing a mini book study and reading “On Being Human” by Fulton Sheen. He is by far one of my favorite writers and it’s been fun to read as a couple! If you’re looking for a fun and different thing to do with your significant other I would definitely recommend reading a book together!

6. A biggie that happened for me that I forgot to mention earlier was that I actually ran ALL of the Bolder Boulder this year! Yes a whole 6 miles! We finished with the time that we were expecting but just the fact that I had actually completed something I never thought possible was extremely exciting. My advice to you all? Don’t be afraid. Stop telling yourself you can’t. If I can adventure out? You sure can! Get out there and do it already!

7. The most exciting thing for me right now in the blogging world is I have created a 30 days modesty challenge. As women it’s a struggle to dress modestly in a world that explicitly advertises the immodest. Please consider joining the #30daysmodestychallenge ! Pray about it and take some selfie of the modest clothing in your closet! Let’s see what happens when we try to bring back a culture of modesty! If you want more information on how to join, click on this link.  Also follow me on instagram at kileenwillis  and Pinterest!